Bonnie’s Beach 🏖

My Life. My Experiences. My Love. My Words.

It Could Always Be Worse…

I say this to myself far too often. But it’s true. It’s an all encompassing truth. At least for me anyway.

So let me tell you how my week has been going. Just realize it’s only Tuesday. That should give an awesome clue as to how this will be laid out.

Sunday was a good day. Warm. I got a couple of paintings done and started a separate art project. It was sunny and warm, around 81°F. It was a tad boring of a day, but I kept busy for the most part. Then a storm comes through. Temps drop. Crazy lightning outside. Flood warnings. Yay Texas weather! It’s kinda normal, actually. The kicker is that Monday morning it is 39 F(ing) degrees outside! 39°?!?! And it’s raining. Cold and wet. Great start to a Monday.

I head outside to my car, praying it will start. Clyde does not like cold weather, but I’ve had so much work done to it that I am hoping it will be ok. Clyde started right up. Wasn’t running weird from the cold. I was highly impressed at this point. It’s going to be a great day! Right? Not until I head home from work!

Clyde has thrown in the towel. I barely made it home. Called the shop where I had spent far too much money to get Clyde fixed up. No answer. Actually, it’s Tuesday night, and I still haven’t received a phone call back. Jerks! Anyway, I had to pull over a few times on the way home, but I made it. Thankfully I made it. Of course my heart is pounding. I’m thinking my car is finally going to blow up. It didn’t. Whew! So anyway, my dad has a spare vehicle, and I am currently borrowing that. My stepmom is amazing! She came over to pick me up, brought dinner for me, and gave me the keys to my dad’s car. So awesome!

I don’t have internet at my place yet (actually getting installed tomorrow, been out for a few months now and cellular signal is fucking terrible). So I am attempting to begin the car buying process which involves multiple searches and filters and blah blah blah. Car shopping. I loathe car shopping. Since we were having shitty weather all day yesterday, my cell service was extra crappy. I couldn’t load anything. I was frustrated. I don’t think my bf knew what to do with me at this point. I know he wishes he could help more, but he’s in need of a new vehicle as well. Aren’t we a cute couple? Both in a hole at this point. So I call my mom.

My mom was all into helping me search for a “new” vehicle. She was putting in search criteria for me, and sending me pictures (which took an eternity to download on the phone 🙄), and she was emailing me links to check out the next day. Super cute and sweet! Love my mom so much! I’m pretty sure she was more excited about car shopping than I was. She found some good ones. Of course, anyone who can’t just walk onto a lot and pay cash for a new vehicle know the joys of used car shopping. You have to test drive all of them. I found some vehicles I was interested in, but dear God! They were not exactly nearby. Frustrating. Crappy weather. Figuring out loan calculators and budget and wondering if I’ll have food for the winter. Such fun!

Today, Tuesday, I drive to work. I’m there for thirty minutes and get a phone call from a friend of mine (also a coworker). She ran out of gas maybe two miles from a gas station! Her car lied to her and said she still had 21 miles left to go before being empty. So I leave the office to go pick her up. We head to the gas station. She gets a gas can and a gallon of gas. We head back to her car. Mind you it is cold as hell and just raining. Great weather to get stuck in. Just miserable weather. Bleh. So we get back to her car. The gas can nozzle won’t fit into her gas tank! I never knew this before, but Fords have a funnel-like thing with the spare just for this! Well, guess what she didn’t have with her spare. So we head to the office. Figure there’s a funnel somewhere in the shop.

Lunchtime rolls around, the rain sort of turns into a light drizzle, and we get ready to head back to her car. Walk out to my borrower vehicle and the driver’s side front tire is looking pretty low. Really? I was just like, come on universe, are you serious right now?! We head over to the gas station, slowly of course, and I put air in the tire. Seems good. We start off towards her car, get on the freeway, and the tire pressure sensor goes off. Pretty much at this point I was over it. I make it to another gas station, pull up to the air, trying to figure out what to do. It’s still cold and rainy. At this point it decided to rain a little harder. Called a coworker to take my friend to her car so I can beeline to a shop. Found a shop nearby, called, and they said they could fix it but wouldn’t be able to get to it for over an hour. That’s fine! Coworker comes to pick up friend. I refill the tire with air and head to the shop. PSI is dropping fast. I slowly make it to another station. More air. I’ve got three blocks to go, and I really don’t want to damage the wheel of this vehicle. Slowly make it to the shop. Get it there, and it finishes deflating.

Gotta say these guys were on it. They finished what they were working on and started working on the tire. Then they tell me the hole is too big to fix and have to use the spare. Fine with me! Do what you guys need to do! Guy comes back in and asks where the special tool is to get the spare down. I have no clue. Didn’t know there was a special tool for this. What else could go wrong?! Incredibly they found it!!! They mounted the spare. Didn’t charge me a thing! Seriously! Nothing! I asked what I owed, and the guy says nothing. I tell him I owe him something. The guy says I don’t. So I thank him multiple times, extremely grateful for the small kindness that brightened my dreary day. I make it back to work only wanting to go home and curl up in a ball and cry.

I made it through the cold and rainy day. Drove home from work. Walked to the front door and I see a bag hanging off the door handle. I take it inside, happy to see my two hair balls and open the bag I brought in. My stepmom brought it over for me with a card, a pumpkin dish, and a bag of candy corn, and that made me cry. I talk to my mom who is wanting to help me out by selling her horse trailer and old truck to lend me cash to put towards a car so I don’t have to pay interest. That made me cry. So my moms made my day end so sweetly and I felt so much love from the two of them. They really know how to remind me that I am loved. So even though my week has started off pretty shitty, today ended in lots of love and feelings of gratitude. Because it could always be worse.

To mellow this post out a touch, I’m going to share something. I recently had more work added to my tattoo piece on my back which entailed four butterflies. The original butterfly I had put on my back was for my grandmother. But I wanted three more coming up over shoulder. Each of those represents my mom, my stepmom, and my ex stepmom. The moms in my life who always made sure I was ok. They are there to help me when I need guidance and strength and someone to vent to. They are with me at all times. All of my tats have individual meanings, but they all come together as a mortality piece on my back. Still need more work done to complete. It’s almost there. It’s special to me. It’s me. But I wanted to share that about the butterfly section.

I hope this hasn’t been too dreary and all of a post, but I feel like sharing my shitty week with you, only to get to the end and seeing how beautiful today turned out. I am so grateful for the little things, my friends, my coworkers, my bf, even when adulting tries to bodyslam me from time to time, those little things all add up to amazingly grand things that make me smile.

Because, after all, it could be worse.

-Bonnie

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Let Me (Re)Introduce Myself…

Hi!

My name is Bonnie. I am a lover of the ocean, the mountains, the desserts, the forests, the grasslands, you name it! I am a bit of a sun whore who will probably end up dying from it (I know, terrible). I love food! I love cooking food! I love eating food! I love reading and writing and painting and speed skating and stand up paddling and climbing and hiking and drinking and challenges and cryptograms and making people smile and my daughter and my mom and family and friends who are family and friends who are friends. I realized this list could go on for far too long, so I’ll just stop there. But I’m pretty sure you get the idea. I do and love and enjoy a lot of things in life!

I am a believer in balance. I don’t necessarily follow any religions, but I do have my beliefs. I was raised Christian, and grew up going to small (like seriously teeny tiny) Christian schools until high school. Lemme tell ya! That was a shock to the system! I had never seen a locker before! No joke! My classes had maybe up to 21 people in them. Then I go to a school where I have to change rooms, and there are 300+ fellow classmates. It was strange not knowing everyone in my class or classes or anything. This was the end of my innocence for sure!!!

So, graduated high school with honors. Failed at my first attempt at college. Joined the Army. Got out of that early (story for another time). Married. Child. Divorced. Single mom. School from time to time. Married. Moved to Hawaii. Moved back to Texas. Divorced. Single mom. Child moved in with her dad. Alone. Stupid boyfriends. Lived in car. Lost friends. Moved into apartment. Really stupid boyfriend. Child moves back in. No more stupid boyfriend. Finally earned my AAS degree! Moved with child. Single mom again. Awesome boyfriend who was my first love from high school!!! Not joking!!! Thought he was dead honestly. 20 year HS reunion had me Google his name. There he was. Messaged him on FB. He messaged back. C’est la vie! Due to his request for privacy, I won’t be writing much directly about him. That’s about all you’re getting for now. 😉

Life is crazy for sure!!!!!

So, hi everyone! Even people who know me probably don’t know all of that, and it’s fun to share my randomness. I think that’s part of being human, passing down stories in general. Not that knowing more about me will do your life really any good, but it’ll help give you a base for any of my future posts. I had mentioned I believe in balance. That is a very huge part of who I am. Future posts will probably involve the misadventures of me trying to find my balance. I will do my best not to bore you, and fair warning: I have a crude sense of humor, and I swear a lot at times (especially if I’ve had a couple of adult beverages before I decide to write, or during, whatever), and I just want to make sure you know that before you get sucked in.

With that, I will try to get on here and write more often. This will be a sort of therapy for me like journaling. I may be brutally honest in some posts. Others might be pretty meh. The future holds so much adventure that I can’t wait to share with you!!!! Let’s see where we go!

-Bonnie 💙

That is my mini me. Life would be boring without her!!!! Love my amazing Angel Pie!!! 💙💙💙💙💙💙

Yes. I do realize that is missing an “a”.

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Getting Back Into the Grooooooooove…

Sitting at my dad’s for the last night, eating a bowl of organic raisin bran, and getting a load of laundry done before I enjoy the comfort of a bed one last time before cocooning myself in my vehicle again. Since the holidays started through my dog sitting time, I haven’t spent any time in my car. This translates into my car being a wreck (I put part of my backseat up for human transport), and now I need to reorganize. I have crap spread between different bags and suitcases, and I have accumulated more stuff from Christmas and my birthday. I have not made a trek to storage in quite a while, so nothing has been dumped off over there. Saturday I went through and cleaned out the car. Dropped off all my sake at my mom’s. Now I have stuff that needs to go to the office and stuff that needs to go to storage before I can fully enjoy the comforts of my home. 🙂 Basically, tomorrow is going to be a busy day. Woohoo!!!!

Anyway, had a pretty good weekend. Met a woman I love working with for the first time on Friday. She works for the company that my company distributes for, and it was awesome getting to put a face to the voice. Nothing at all what I imagined her to look like! Crazy how the mind does that. You get this idea of what someone would look like based on their voice, and they never ever ever look like what you think! Ever!!! Just crazy!!!!

Hung out at my mom’s for the weekend. Always love hanging out at mom’s, but I swear that place is like a vortex of laziness. I mean, it’s like a place to get away, and you just don’t feel like doing shit. It’s nice! It’s relaxing! I can be myself and not care about the world. At least until my mom and I start discussing politics and randomness. Then a fire is lit, but we’re usually thinking along the same lines. Usually. Love you mom. My sister dropped by yesterday and today. Always good to see her! It’s weird being over at mom’s and she’s not living there anymore. I always love it when all of us girls are together!

So Texas weather is crazy! It was cold and rainy most of last week, and now it is warming up again. It’s supposed to be in the mid-seventies through Thursday!!!! I think I might be mixing up some outdoor time with my gym time this week. Maybe get some vitamin D production going. Today was the beginning of the warm up. It was windy as all hell, but the sun was out and shining, and the sky was a beautiful blue! I decided to pull out the ol’ bow and get some target practice in. Damn wind! Damn wind!!!!!!!! I didn’t do too terribly bad, but boy that wind made it a challenge. Hell! It’s been so long since I last practiced I’m surprised I hit the damn target at all!! It felt good though! It was nice shooting something! I just picture someone’s face in place of the target bag and voila! Instant stress release! Just kidding! I wasn’t picturing anyone’s face, but now that I have thought about it I wish I had.

Alright, I am going to finish up laundry and do some dishes and go to bed! Oh yeah! Must enter my calories for the day! I have been really really bad this weekend! But it was oh so worth every fattening, calorie-dense morsel!!!! Eh! I’ll work it off this week I am sure! I won’t have much else to do but go to the gym. On that note, good night and sweet dreams!

-Bonnie

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Randomness…

I don’t really have anything particular to say this evening. Not really sure why I am even writing tonight. There’s no car update. The weather is shitty. I am tired. Hmmm…

So training has been going well. Still getting to know my trainer, and so far so good, although I did slack off a bit today. I was supposed to have a cardio day today. I mean technically I did. Dancing after midnight is still technically doing some cardio today, right? Totally makes sense in my head! So I did something at least. :). Then I went way over my calories today. They say lack of sleep can help cause you to eat more. And boy is it true when it comes to me. Food switch is turned off when I am tired. I will make up for that tomorrow.

Got to hang out at my mom’s today on the way back up from Austin. That was nice! I love my mom! She’s a little crazy, and I definitely know where I get mine from! Although I think I am a bit crazier. It’s always great spending time with her though. Had some hot chocolate with marshmallows, watched a little bit of Salt, and talked about cats and building her house and yeah, pretty much all the randomness we usually discuss.

Anyway, so that is all I am going to bust out with for now. Feel free to leave me a comment letting me know how boring this post was. That way I can keep writing about nothing just to bug you more. 😉

So on that note, good night and sweet dreams! Ciao for now!

Bonnie

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