I find that I am being a bit more open about my situation than I originally planned. Don’t get me wrong, I am not embarrassed by my current chosen status. I just don’t like enduring the questions and concerned looks as though I am going through some unfathomable period in my life. I don’t want to be pitied or looked down on for my choice. I have chosen this as my my current situation. I am happy. I am good with this. I am doing what I have been planning for months now. This was not some last second decision I was forced into. And as I have mentioned before, thank you for the acts of kindness in offering me a place to stay. I will not take you up on those offers. I don’t care how many spare rooms you have. I don’t care if you’re not at home on the weekends. I have no desire to take anyone up on anything that has anything to do with my staying at anyone’s house.
I may take you up on the whole parking in the driveway thing. I may also take you up on a single night where I come over and make you dinner and have a couple drinks. So there are a couple of exceptions to my stubbornness. 🙂
Even with all of that, I am still keeping this mostly secretive. People who know have been asked not to tell anyone else. If I have said its ok to tell so and so, then that’s fine. But only tell so and so and please stress the discreetness of my instructions. I know there will be family who ask about how I am doing. All that needs to be said is that I am doing well, enjoying work, and happy. Simple as that. When I feel I want to open up more to others, then that is up to me. I hope you understand, and I hope this wasn’t too dramatic a post.
Go ahead. Worry about me all you want. I’m fine. Really. Besides, it’s Texas. Don’t think I’m doing all this with only a machete in the car… 😉
Good night and sweet dreams.
-B
Bonnie’s Beach 🏖 
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