Bonnie’s Beach 🏖

My Life. My Experiences. My Love. My Words.


I’m not even sure what to write about tonight. Pretty much anything I do just irritates people. I feel like I fuck up more often than not. Even on the things I know how to do, I feel stupid.

My past post seemed to give a couple people a guilty conscious to where they are now avoiding me like the plague. breaking the silence with a meme does not constitute communicating. but whatever. What do I expect when I have no friends to spend time with or the rare ones I do have are busy with their own lives and priorities.

I’m tired and sad and lonely. All I want to do is sleep but instead I am awake and writing out some randomness.

Oh well. Guess I’ll get some sleep. At least I can catch some zzzzzzz with a clear mind. It is what it is.



Another Night of Cheating…

Yep! You read that right! Another night not spent in my car! I am cheating on my Tahoe yet again. It must be missing me. Strange to admit that it continues to grow on me, and the cocoon comfort that my vehicle provides is missed. I fear I would become some sort of hermit if I refused every offer to stay in a warm bed and enjoy the time spent with family and friends.

Another cold front is coming in. That’s the weirdness of Texas weather. Eighty degrees one day, forty the next. I love the cold temperatures. I get to wear my scarves and boots and my new parka, but the breathing in of freezing air does not bring joy to my uvula. Yeah. My uvula. It doesn’t like cold, dry air. While I stay perfectly warm all nestled in my blankets, my uvula is subjected to freezing cold air all night long. And let me tell you, when the dangly, internal throat flesh is unhappy, I am uncomfortable all day! No bueno. So what I thought was going to be my main concern on cold nights turned out to be something I never would have guessed, what’s a girl to do? Maybe I need to go buy a sheet to keep over my face all night, but then that gets stuffy. Maybe buy a face warmer thing to sleep in, but then it gets damp from breathing. Lord knows at some point my mouth falls wide open and chainsaws commence! So now I need to find maybe a battery operated humidifier? I don’t think anything would freeze on really cold nights. Although thinking and finding out are two completely different scenarios. Maybe there a battery operated mini heater? I mean, I can always use rechargeables… Guess I’ll just have to go online shopping for randomness tomorrow. A very good friend of mine offered to help me design and build some sort of battery/solar station to be used for an external heater or whatever I need or could use it for. Thank you, Bare. I’m still needing to research it a bit. I’ll work on that this week.

Anyway, this weekend was a pretty great weekend! Had my mini-me since Friday night when we went to see the Parade of Lights in downtown Fort Worth. Always a fun thing to do! Got to see a bunch of the cousins in town from Maryland, as well as the ones who live nearby that I hardly ever get around to seeing. This to me is sad, knowing that I have family so close, and yet I don’t put forth the effort to see them more. Maybe it bothers me that I do this? Maybe it bother me that they don’t put in any effort either.

Saturday was our turkey day, and boy was it worth the wait! Didn’t eat until 8-8:30, and we all pigged out! I got my homemade apple pie!!!! Thank you mom!!!!!! 🙂 Today was a lazy day. I did bake my pumpkin chocolate chip cookies though! WOOHOO!!!!

Alright, I am going to be signing off now. Back to work, dark and early! I am going to have plenty to do in the office! Dream of unicorns and rainbows and all that sparkly stuff! I know what I’ll be dreaming about!!! :*

Nighty night!


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Alternative Turkey

Today my crazy side of the family has planned to celebrate Thanksgiving. There is a reasoning to our madness as my offspring was not able to join us on the actual day of turkey-murdering festivities. So, we postponed it and moved it out.

With a rough start to waking up the turkey chef (my mom), I must now go and fry up some bacon goodness for breakfast while my child sits over here cutting cheese looking at Instagram. :-/ Yep. I still lay claim to her. She knows she’s loved. 🙂

And with that, have a great Saturday!!!! I’ll add some more to this later. I know you want to read about the Parade of Lights!!!! Ciao for now!



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The Day of Turkey Is Upon Us – And I’m Thankful

So technically it is Thanksgiving. A day for being thankful for what we have been blessed with. I love the fact that it is basically a crazy family day, where the craziness begins the day before with pies baking and foods being prepped. In one quick moment, all of the time and cooking and cleaning and chopping and baking culminate into a grand feast after which we all happily attempt to remain awake. I find it quite difficult trying to stay awake. Sometimes you just have to undo that top button (or come prepared in sweat pants) and give in to the tryptophan.

This year, we are having our turkey day on Saturday. My sis has to work today, and my mom wasn’t feeling very well in order to start the baking. And me? Well, I decided to head to the office to get a few things done that I didn’t get to the day before. Yea! Work on my day off!!! The nice part of that was I got there after everyone left, so my music was cranked up, and I was singing away with no one to distract me!!! I really had nothing better to do, so being at the office wasn’t bad. 🙂

Basically today will be a day of movies and hanging out in my jammies and hopefully sleeping in since it’s currently 1:45 am. The cats are being idiots and running around right now though. Only when I am about to go to sleep they decide to wake up! Oh well. They’ll come sleep on me some point soon, and I will be thankful for that. So here goes the year’s thanks: I am thankful for my family, my close friends who are more family than some family, my daughter who is amazingly talented, smart and beautiful, my job and the people I work with, my car that hasn’t broken down on me yet despite needing a lot of work and tlc, my health because let’s face it, I’m still alive, and last but not least, I am thankful for all the experiences life has to offer, because without them, life wouldn’t be worth living.

Happy Thanksgiving everyone!!!!!!


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